Heavy and Steady

Okay. It took exactly 2 in a half months for my period to return. I was jumping for joy because I did not have any HOT-FLASHES, but the doctor told me "when you stop having hot-flashes, then you know it will be soon". Well guess what! It was lol! I enjoyed not having to worry about my period. For some people it could take 6 months, but it depends on your age. Even though having no period is amazing, you still have the thought of wanting it, especially for reasons like not having children yet. I went through the fertility process and have 11 embryos on ice or what I consider "Popsicle babies". So for you ladies out there wondering about when your period will return, don't worry. Enjoy it while it's gone. I'm only speaking from my experience. Some of you may think differently.

Another fact to consider is the doctors will tell you  "you probably won't have a period going through chemo but in my case, I had a period all the way until my last 2 treatments. IT Sucked!!! But hey, at least I know my ovaries were still functioning which is a major concern for some.

I don't know if anyone else experienced cramping during chemo, but I did. The doctor could not figure out what was wrong with me because I was his youngest patient and this is not a common side effect. Lucky me. So, the method we chose to help with cramping was:

• receiving chemo for a certain amount of time 
• taking a 15 minute break and resume from there.

This course of action stopped the cramping. Now of course "only me" experience the luxury of the weird side effects but surprisingly once my periods stopped, my cramping stopped. So the conclusion was my ovaries were shutting down. Makes total since I guess!

Ladies, if you are experiencing cramps, don't be alarm. Its just your body telling you that the poison is taking effect. But have no fear, my period return with vengeance but only for 4 days. Heavy and steady!

xoxo Superbritt

Tamoxfien Anxiety

January 2nd is the day I decided to take my "pill for a lifetime" There were so many thoughts in my mind leading up to this day. Issues I thought I laid to rest but it was not until the very moment when I place the pill in my hand, that everything came back. Anxiety kicked in that I did not know I had and tears. I could not understand why I was feeling this way. Thank God for my wonderful husband who comfort me and told me it was doing to be okay. It asked my, why I was feeling this way and if I was sure about taking it. My reply was Yes but I am afraid because it may cause something else and his response was HAVE FAITH, you got through the hard part.

From there, I realized that I was going to be okay. Some people don't have an opportunity to take a pill after chemo. It made feel so selfish having a chance at what they consider lower chance of reoccurrence. Many women hesitate about taking this pill and you should because it is your body, but know that you are not alone in your thought process and it's normal. We go through so much once you find out you have cancer, so adding on is a major concern to have.

Those words my husband spoke to me instantly removed all my worries and now I fell free. Trust your gut, yourself and do what's best for you.

xoxo Superbritt