No Such Thang...

Life after treatment is so different. It feels like a new world that I am just seeing for the first time. When going through treatment, all you can think of is getting back to normal and surviving,

but what is normal? 

Will your life be the same for better or for the worse?

Going through a whole year of surgeries, treatments and procedures feels like only yesterday for me. Some days, I think of what I've been through in the past year and realize "Wow I've been through some shit". Is this feeling normal? Should I feel this way?

I had a survivor-ship appointment with my doctor:

1. are you depress
2. are you experiencing pain
3. insomnia
4. are you sad
5. any new symptoms

The list goes on only to make me realize that I am not the only one who is experiencing these thoughts.

It's normal to feel alone, depress, and worried after going through something as dramatic as Cancer. When going through chemo, I had no time to think or really feel. The only thing I could do is go into survivor mode. 

So for all my Cancer survivors and fighters be strong. Living life after treatment is a new adventure! You will discover things about yourself that you never knew. It will be scary but know that life will get better only if you embrace the change.

I know we often think  "I can't wait to get back to normal" but in reality there is no normal. Only figuring out life lesson's and still having thoughts of what if........... It seems like being strong is easy during treatment, but living life after cancer is difficult.

→LEARN HOW TO LOVE YOURSELF ALL OVER AGAIN AND EXCEPT YOUR NEW PERFECTION.

So my motto is ↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓