Update on Life

So March 16th marks the day of my spotting.

You ask "spotting of what"?

BLOODY MARY!

Now before that day, I went to see my OBGYN for a follow up and everything was going well. No issues from this pill for a lifetime. Little did I know, I had issues going on inside of me.

"Great another problem I have to deal with!"

If this happens to you, call your doctor immediately. I called my doctor and she ordered a sonogram because one of the risk from Tamoxifen is the uterus wall can thicken up causing high risk for

uterine cancer. Remind you I started taking this pill in January.

My results came back in and guess everyone? My wall is thickening up ALREADY.

My doctor, being that great doctor that she is wanted to do a biopsy. This was the worst feeling every. I'm not going to lie. That SHIT HURTS!! So be prepared for pain. Also, she ordered a test where they shoot saline in your uterus. Sounds weird..... I guess its like a medical douche lol!

I decided to stop taking the Tamoxifen just to see what happens when it is time for my next test. This was a hard decision but I know my body. For me, it seems like it's doing my body more harm than good.

Always listen to your body and signs it gives you. If it was not for me listening to my body, I would not have discovered that I had breast cancer.

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Before being diagnose with cancer, I was a gym RAT!! Always watching what I ate, working out and helping other people with their fitness. 

Basically, I did everything in my power to avoid not getting cancer yet it happen. So when I started treatment, I said fuck it at least I should enjoy food while going through chemo. So I ate and ate. 

Food was a way for me to coop and honestly it helped. For that time, I really did not care about my size. I only worried about getting better. 

For some, this may sound strange but for me, it was pure happiness. Now, I am cleared to workout and get this CHEMO WEIGHT off.

Ladies there is hope. You have to take it one day at a time and be patient with your body. You've been through a lot. Those of the words I have to keep telling myself in order to keep pushing.

Never think about the old you and how you use to be. Think about creating a better you!

No Such Thang...

Life after treatment is so different. It feels like a new world that I am just seeing for the first time. When going through treatment, all you can think of is getting back to normal and surviving,

but what is normal? 

Will your life be the same for better or for the worse?

Going through a whole year of surgeries, treatments and procedures feels like only yesterday for me. Some days, I think of what I've been through in the past year and realize "Wow I've been through some shit". Is this feeling normal? Should I feel this way?

I had a survivor-ship appointment with my doctor:

1. are you depress
2. are you experiencing pain
3. insomnia
4. are you sad
5. any new symptoms

The list goes on only to make me realize that I am not the only one who is experiencing these thoughts.

It's normal to feel alone, depress, and worried after going through something as dramatic as Cancer. When going through chemo, I had no time to think or really feel. The only thing I could do is go into survivor mode. 

So for all my Cancer survivors and fighters be strong. Living life after treatment is a new adventure! You will discover things about yourself that you never knew. It will be scary but know that life will get better only if you embrace the change.

I know we often think  "I can't wait to get back to normal" but in reality there is no normal. Only figuring out life lesson's and still having thoughts of what if........... It seems like being strong is easy during treatment, but living life after cancer is difficult.

→LEARN HOW TO LOVE YOURSELF ALL OVER AGAIN AND EXCEPT YOUR NEW PERFECTION.

So my motto is ↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓

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Today was good day. It's been 3 months since I had my last reconstruction surgery. Wow! how time flies!! Pretty much, my doctor with the "gifted hands" said these girls look good. I'm so excited and happy! Never thought in a million years I would have implants. Trust, it was not by choice!

So ladies make sure to research your doctor when it comes to reconstruction surgery. This is so important. Make sure the surgeon specialize in reconstruction. NOT ALL DO! BE AWARE!

• Ask to see their work
• Look for reviews
• Ask plenty of questions( they should not mind because they want you to feel comfortable with your decision)
• If possible, find a breast surgeon and plastic surgeon that work together for these procedures.
• Last, make sure you like the surgeon. BIG DEAL!! The more you like, the happier you are about your decision.

 Choosing the silicone implant was an easy choice only because, #1 my husband liked it and #2 it gives you a better result when dealing with no breast tissue. I felt and touch the other ones, but they were too firm for my liking....... but everyone is different. 

Always remember to love the skin you are in and know that implants are only options. You do not have to get them. 

My visit's are always fun and enjoyable. I get to hear how beautiful and nice my breast look. 

What girl wouldn't want that lol..... 

So if you are every in the Dallas area, make sure to check out Dr. Landon Perry. He never disappoints.

Unwanted News

February 11th

Today marks the day when I found out I had cancer. I was working when I received the devastating news. My life change in a matter of seconds. I did not have my mother to turn to only because she does not live in Texas, but I had my two "mama bears". They were able to comfort me, show me love and tender care. This day for me sometimes feels like yesterday yet when I take a look at my pictures, I see how far I have come. 

I am missing a person who was also there for me on that day. I will never forget the words he spoke.

 He looked at me and said "promise me you are going to fight this" and my reply was yes. I will always hold on to those worlds because everyday is a battle.

Cant believe its been a year! A year I will never forget. A year that has shown me how strong I can be and a year that changed my life forever. I will always share this day and moment with them.

Now look at me. I fought and kicked cancer in the ass!

xoxo Superbritt

Heavy and Steady

Okay. It took exactly 2 in a half months for my period to return. I was jumping for joy because I did not have any HOT-FLASHES, but the doctor told me "when you stop having hot-flashes, then you know it will be soon". Well guess what! It was lol! I enjoyed not having to worry about my period. For some people it could take 6 months, but it depends on your age. Even though having no period is amazing, you still have the thought of wanting it, especially for reasons like not having children yet. I went through the fertility process and have 11 embryos on ice or what I consider "Popsicle babies". So for you ladies out there wondering about when your period will return, don't worry. Enjoy it while it's gone. I'm only speaking from my experience. Some of you may think differently.

Another fact to consider is the doctors will tell you  "you probably won't have a period going through chemo but in my case, I had a period all the way until my last 2 treatments. IT Sucked!!! But hey, at least I know my ovaries were still functioning which is a major concern for some.

I don't know if anyone else experienced cramping during chemo, but I did. The doctor could not figure out what was wrong with me because I was his youngest patient and this is not a common side effect. Lucky me. So, the method we chose to help with cramping was:

• receiving chemo for a certain amount of time 
• taking a 15 minute break and resume from there.

This course of action stopped the cramping. Now of course "only me" experience the luxury of the weird side effects but surprisingly once my periods stopped, my cramping stopped. So the conclusion was my ovaries were shutting down. Makes total since I guess!

Ladies, if you are experiencing cramps, don't be alarm. Its just your body telling you that the poison is taking effect. But have no fear, my period return with vengeance but only for 4 days. Heavy and steady!

xoxo Superbritt

Tamoxfien Anxiety

January 2nd is the day I decided to take my "pill for a lifetime" There were so many thoughts in my mind leading up to this day. Issues I thought I laid to rest but it was not until the very moment when I place the pill in my hand, that everything came back. Anxiety kicked in that I did not know I had and tears. I could not understand why I was feeling this way. Thank God for my wonderful husband who comfort me and told me it was doing to be okay. It asked my, why I was feeling this way and if I was sure about taking it. My reply was Yes but I am afraid because it may cause something else and his response was HAVE FAITH, you got through the hard part.

From there, I realized that I was going to be okay. Some people don't have an opportunity to take a pill after chemo. It made feel so selfish having a chance at what they consider lower chance of reoccurrence. Many women hesitate about taking this pill and you should because it is your body, but know that you are not alone in your thought process and it's normal. We go through so much once you find out you have cancer, so adding on is a major concern to have.

Those words my husband spoke to me instantly removed all my worries and now I fell free. Trust your gut, yourself and do what's best for you.

xoxo Superbritt